Emotions … too much or too less?? …

Take away all that you feel is right.

I am like the silent stone at the end of the lane!

Say all that your insides crave to say:-

I have lost the track of time God knows since when …

You are right as you always are,

Break the shackles let the teardrops rain;

Throw me a thousand shards:-

Stupefied and numb, I want to feel human again …

 

And I couldn’t but reflect:-

That there were so many of them, chained with disdain

Agonizingly merciless complicated situations,

I could care less and so you would:-

They proved more than just frivolous insinuations,

Of a pandemonium of life, like a mess,

That eventually ripped me off my sensations!

 Was I blind to all your tears, your countless fears?

Or was I a black hole when it came to emotional manifestations?

 

Standing neck-deep into the abyss of hell,

Tried have I not, to sort out, to fight!

I reached out for your hand with all my heart

Only to realize that you were no longer by my side!

Did you feel the same about me, oh you must have!

As we gained distance with each and every stride –

The melodrama, the freak shows radically increased,

As every day and every moment, a part of us died!

 

Now it’s all cold, now it’s all done and dusted …

There’s nothing left inside …

Our signs proclaim our separation via

A piece of paper – the blood-stained bonafide!

Still this one last time that our paths have crossed,

But like mutes inarticulate, I stand speechless as I guide

My stares wayward, my face drenched with fake camaraderie ….

I don’t feel a thing, up did the emotions dry!

 

But then why does my heart scream:- 

Take away all that you feel is right.

I am like the silent stone at the end of the lane!

Say all that your insides crave to say:-

I have lost the track of time God knows since when …

You are right as you always are,

Break the shackles let the teardrops rain;

Throw me a thousand shards:-

Stupefied and numb, I want to feel human again …

Dawn …

With slow edgy steps

The night retreats

From the mortal world,

The expanse of her darkness

Ebbing out

With a poignant calm;

Diminishing bit by bit

With every tick of the clock:-

As the deadpan stillness

Adorning the nocturnes

Turns out to be

An ephemeral phenomenon

Soon to be ended

By the serene avian chirps

Reverberating the horizon across

To herald the moment of truth …

The veiled lady

Blushing with innocence,

Breathing the light of life,

Emerges from the dark depths

Of her tainted predecessor

As she bestows,

With a divine sincerity,

Freshness to the morning air,

Fervency to the quiescent waters,

Energy to the soul of mankind,

Hope to countless hearts!

The start of another voyage;

Another spin of the wheel of life;

And once done,

With smooth eloquence,

She lifts her veil up

And amalgamates into her successor …

Her transient self

Mingled in daylight.

A new day has come …

A new day has come …

A Lone Loon Prattles …..

I am walking down the road.

It’s just another day.

There’s a zephyr blowing.

I am so lost in the fray

With my mind that has gone astray!

 

Adversities have taken their toll

On my life as there have been

So many I have lost the count.

Oh! I would have loved to win:-

The battles lost, so brutal, so devastating!

 

I was looking here and there

Searching for that very place

Where amidst every other pain

I had found solace.

But now I somehow fail to trace.

 

They say go on and keep trying.

But happiness passes in a wink of an eye!

How much ever I hold back,

How much ever I try,

It eludes me and bids me good bye!

 

I see the same angel in my dream.

She promises to teach me first

That magic trick which would erase

Memories of my wretched past-

I wake up to realize that the dream didn’t last!

 

I look at my shadow, obeying my every move.

Realize that the light of life hasn’t fainted yet.

I have to pick myself up.

All that I deserve I have to get.

Enough of the lonely tears that I’ve shed!

 

If only I could get blessed,

With friendship and love around;

With a tiny help I can breathe,

The sweet smell of joy profound;

Oh How I wish to turn things around!

 

Knocked on the doors to no avail;

Tried hard to gel in;

I want you but oh you don’t?

It’s the same story all over again!

I did try so hard, but in vain!

 

And somewhere along the lane

Again I found myself all alone.

Bewildered by the fake smiles around-

Lost amidst the ocean of unknown!

Ah! The silent walk back to oblivion!

 

Drenched of all the emotions,

The black-hole heart of mine;

Eat drink work and sleep.

A meticulous routine one of a kind;

A senseless body trudges with a helpless mind!

 

I am still walking down the road.

It’s just another day.

There’s a zephyr blowing.

I am so lost in the fray

With my mind that has gone astray!