Right in one
Dark solitary corner of my mind,
Dwells a lot of emotions.
Have never quite got a hang of them.
Have never quite understood their depths.
As I continue my quest.
Emotions, a plethora of them,
Poured out of the predicament
That defines the core of my life,
Marching out like a rebellion,
Picketing in defiance against my inner self,
As I stand bereft of all the reasons
To justify my own sanity!
How hopeless! How sad!
Emotions spewing out unabashedly
From dismal sleepless nights
When the insomniac in me
Rages havoc with sincere brutality
Only to take refuge
In the clutches of the restless dreams,
Gnawing away my slumber,
My only accord with peace!
Emotions born out of exasperations,
When I can’t understand
The world around me!
The people around me!
Their insinuations, their expectations
Overburdened with which my feet tremble: –
I’m no brave-heart though I fake to be one!
I wear my mask!
So they keep on thrashing against my senses,
Waves of my emotional exuberance!
Wanting to be recognized,
But unheeded and unheard!
Craving for an identity, but identity-deprived!
I know not how to handle them, they choke me
Relentlessly as I drown on the inside,
Invisible to the rest of the world!