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No Name

You were like

Chinese porcelain

Those eyes of blue heaven

You were sanctity

 

I had you

Wrapped around my soul

I loved you

I loved you too much

 

Did I die

When you ripped me apart?

Was I mawkishly sentimental

Or was I numbed to the core

 

And there I was

Like a dog chasing cars!

Stripped off my vanity

Stripped off my sanity

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The Story of a Friday Night

Perhaps,

It wasn’t just another Friday night,

For something magical

Was waiting to happen!

Something special …

Maybe, who knew?

As their eyes met,

Again,

For the hundredth time that night!

A spark

Ready to fly!

A connection

Waiting to be made!

But alas! They looked away

Again!

And with drooping shoulders

And a throbbing heart

But with genuine sincerity

They took refuge in the

Helpless company of

The strangers of their lives: –

Strangers they met every day.

Strangers close to their physical self

But miles apart from their souls!

And the lights blazed,

The music grew louder,

The bottles grew emptier,

As loneliness bit their insides

Yet they were never short of laughs;

They needed a get away

Yet they sat along,

Nonchalantly,

With a contented face,

Gulping down the scotch

Their only other succour of the night

Than one another!

And before time

As they took their last sip,

There was this momentary pause

Just for that tiny bit!

Audaciously agonizing!

But surprisingly romantic!

Accompanied by

The fleeting dilemma

And the nervous heart-beats!

An ephemeral silence …

Engulfed them,

Alienating them

From all the ruckus

Of the outside world!

They looked mystified

As time stood still!

And then,

The final glance!

The final twinge!

The final moment

But of unrequited velleity!

As their broken-hearts

Decided otherwise: –

“Not today!”

“Not today”

As if taking a break

Would resurrect the part of them

That was already dead!

Maybe that solitary moment of warmth

Was all that they wished for!

Or maybe it was fate

As they made their way out.

A moment lost: –

A moment of rejuvenation!

A chance missed: –

A change to be whole again!

The music was still as loud as ever!

Most definitely,

It was just another Friday night,

Mundane, average, ordinary!

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Diseased … Deceased

Let go off me
At least now
Now that I have died,
Can you spare my remains?
Oh you evil darkness
Take a sabbatical
Have you not
Had enough
Sucking the life
Out of me
Since my very existence!
Clinging
To my unformed identity
Ever since I was breathing!
You penetrated your way,
Didn’t you,
Like a truth omnipresent
Inside me
Persistently Subsistent
Feasting away on my soul
My flesh, my blood
And I meekly surrendered
Bleak and bewildered,
A puppet
To your forceful dominance!
My heart pierced
Over and over again
I died a thousand deaths
Before giving up
While you cherished
My epitaph: –
This was but a crown
On your head.

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Unrequited … Ill-fated …

I walked a thousand miles

In sombre solitude

To reach the very core of your heart

As close as my conflicted mind could allow!

 

I poured a thousand gazes

At your gorgeous self

To drink in your audacious beauty

As much as your sensitivity could bestow!

 

I thought a thousand times

Just to be sure

My poor and wretched soul

Was in love with a princess, beautiful!

 

I wrote a thousand letters

Only to tear them up

As it seemed a story too good to be true

But eventually I found the courage to do the inevitable!

 

I knew I was late when I saw you:-

As you held his hand;

Unaware you walked past me as you beamed

And I stood there helpless and forlorn!

 

I uttered a thousand prayers

As I wished you happiness

While I got drowned in sadness

And away you went; then … you were gone!

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Sigh!

There have been golden days, so beautiful

We had held hands and walked the miles

Together …

 

There have been raging storms, merciless

We have stemmed the flow of water, stopped it from gushing in

Together …

                                      

Oh those moments of serenity,

Wrapped around our conjoined hearts as we trudged along

Together …

 

Time ticked on with a vicious speed

And now that I am shriveled with this disease:-

Cannot help but I am aged

As I read through the final page!

Am I wrong for not wanting you with me in this?

You can shout but I am not that selfish!

Your tears make me bleed but together no more

As the raging waters splash across the shores,

In search of solace I look right in your eyes,

And that makes it so hard to say goodbye!

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The Beggar

A shapeless grubby bowl,

Picked up from the garbage,

Is the sole companion

Of his slovenly soul

Discarded by the goodness

That defines humankind,

Along with the tattered remains

Of fabric wrapped around

His filthy cold body,

Aged, crippled!

Haplessly he stares:-

Every moment of his bloody existence,

In severe expectation

At every pedestrian

Who passes by

Awaiting that glorious instant

When a coin would be flung

At his despicable self

Staggering in woe

At despair’s behest!

And at days’ end-

When he can barely manage

To satisfy his

Insatiable hunger …

He looks up at the sky

With tear soaked eyes!

And he begs for his salvation!

To be at peace forever

Renouncing this curse of a life,

Wretched and deplorable:-

He closes his eyes

Hoping not for a better but for

No tomorrow,

Only to wake up

At the sound of the honking horns

And the raging glares of the summer sun!

His fight for survival begins;

The inevitable life takes its course;

How much more can he endure …

Inconsequential, as right there

The beggar begs on

The corner of the road,

Lost and forlorn,

All day long!

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The Brooding Magpie …

Money can’t really buy         Joy and happiness as I

Stand amid the riches galore         With your face in my eyes …

And I don’t know why         Your thoughts make me cry,

I feel helpless but         To smile I indeed try …

 

Ignore me and no! I’m not high!

I am just a brooding old magpie!

I am just a griever with hapless silent sighs!

 

I failed to realize         You were the one in disguise,

In my pursuit to fill my purse       I let you go; I am the darned unwise!

And no words can ever suffice       As every moment a part of me dies;

The loss that I incurred …         I did pay the heavy price …

 

Ignore me, oh! you want to know why?

I am just a brooding old magpie!

I am just a griever with hapless silent sighs!

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The Gesture …

I try, I try and I keep on trying …

The words get stuck in my mouth!

Wish I could gather myself

And let it all out …

 

All out in one go.

Shed this burden off my chest.

It’s killing me softly from inside:-

I’m captive at despair’s behest!

 

That I’m sorry, I really am,

No, not a cliche, neither a hopeless rant!

I regret from my heart’s core the day

When I let go of your hand!

 

But I couldn’t tell you that all awhile;

I am but a captive of my obnoxious pride.

The evil egoist messes my mind:-

Alas, I couldn’t but take the stride!

 

To tell you that it was my fault!

Distraction got me swayed!

You wanted to build a house

And I brought it down before it was made!

 

Bathed in my chauvinism

I was hopeless as you cried;

I couldn’t fathom that with

Every teardrop a part of you died …

 

I do now and I curse myself

As I helplessly stand alone

Wish you could take me back

But then you’ve already moved on …

 

I know it’s too late and you care less

But still I want to look into your eyes

And let go of my emotions as I

Hold your hand and apologize!

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Words of the Fallen …

I am the prisoner of my indolence.

I am the prisoner of my inability.

The stoic in me can never express.

I am the prisoner of my velleity!

 

I have been too timorous.

I have been too shy.

It haunts me thinking that,

That much I never really tried!

 

Perseverance is bliss!

Sadly I am oblivious to it!

The dreamer in me is paralyzed:-

Giving up at the first sign of defeat!

 

Shelved in my own grave,

I am the dead man alive!

Wills eroded, emotions dried up;

I am a lost soul, grayed and naive! 

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The Stride ……..

The waves whispered to me

As I gazed at the open sea;

Water swept over my feet

And my heart skipped a beat

As with a pained heart and a deep sigh

I revisited my whole life and bid goodbye

Once and for all to all of them

Whom I’ve tried to love but in vain!

I let my mind go astray!

The whole world was grey!

I wanted to get lost.

Let everything go for a toss.

The wind caressed my body

With lover’s bliss and rhapsody!

The distant ripples were just

Eloquent hand gestures that

Called me out and I took my step:-

The new story was taking shape!

As the world of the unknown beckoned

My wretched soul, tortured and troubled,

The cold water seeped chills in my bones

But unabashed I carried on and on.

I could hear a mystifying symphony

Echoing in my head in harmony,

So the waves whispered to me again,

This time it took away the fear and the pain,

I closed my eyes and saw the light

It was my rejuvenation sprouting out from my plight!

Let the wounds heal, let the twinge ease:-

I am the rider to eternal peace!

And then the moment arrived,

The water around me jived

To cover me up in its own merry way:-

As I surrendered myself in gay,

The world moved on, it was just another day,

Lost in the oblivion I faded away!

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