Tag Archives: Realization

The Gesture …

I try, I try and I keep on trying …

The words get stuck in my mouth!

Wish I could gather myself

And let it all out …

 

All out in one go.

Shed this burden off my chest.

It’s killing me softly from inside:-

I’m captive at despair’s behest!

 

That I’m sorry, I really am,

No, not a cliche, neither a hopeless rant!

I regret from my heart’s core the day

When I let go of your hand!

 

But I couldn’t tell you that all awhile;

I am but a captive of my obnoxious pride.

The evil egoist messes my mind:-

Alas, I couldn’t but take the stride!

 

To tell you that it was my fault!

Distraction got me swayed!

You wanted to build a house

And I brought it down before it was made!

 

Bathed in my chauvinism

I was hopeless as you cried;

I couldn’t fathom that with

Every teardrop a part of you died …

 

I do now and I curse myself

As I helplessly stand alone

Wish you could take me back

But then you’ve already moved on …

 

I know it’s too late and you care less

But still I want to look into your eyes

And let go of my emotions as I

Hold your hand and apologize!

Advertisements

4 Comments

Filed under Poetry, Random

Death of an Alcoholic …

The right never seemed right

For I was never sober;

I swaggered on in my life in splurge,

I was in fifth gear!

The pomp and the splendor

Was actually pandemonium:-

But little did I understand,

Inebriated, I was self-damned

Boozing my way to the morning again

Red and black tarnishing my eyes,

The alcohol sucked my life’s breath

More than I could ever surmise!

And I thought I was celebrating life

Dismissing the hurt and the pain with glee

As I drank to my ignorance

Bathed in my sordid moral apathy!

The ethanolic smog grasped my soul!

Being giddy gave me solace!

Drenched in vile intoxication

I was the ignominy on the face of grace!

And that was the moment I collapsed

I was cold and the world was quiet.

A sated heart or a disgusted subconscious

Or both of them engrossed in a fight-

Immaterial, as the malevolent alcohol

Fulfilled its destiny, accomplished its role:-

I had already drank my way to false glory

No more was in store for the savaged soul!

Leave a comment

Filed under Poetry, Random

Reality or Pessimism? … or maybe just a Simple Realization!

There are times when I close my eyes and think

Feels like I’m staring at my shadow without a blink.

Lost in its emptiness profound

As in my fears I get drowned!

All the thoughts that plague my inner self-

What have I done with my life … oh please tell!

Did I dare to dream or did my feet tremble

Or was I wrapped in my own world like a frog in the well!

Unaware of the truth that drives the world.

The truth that brave-hearts in their lives unfurl.

The truth that’s evergreen like a drop of dew:-

The one that says – chase your dreams till they come true!

 

In this life that never seemed to be of any good!

The violence that ravaged my dear childhood.

Setbacks were too many to stand on my two feet.

An agonizing lot I did try, I really did.

Nothing is good enough when the glory seems light years away!

The silent routine of trying hard and waiting for my day.

And as failure decayed the hopes of rejuvenation

The mind played games over this hopeless situation

Weakening me to the core as I fell on my face

Am I a loser, a no-good, a disgrace?

It was that moment when I couldn’t but rue

No matter how much you chase, some dreams don’t come true!

14 Comments

Filed under Random