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Memories of Farewell Songs

Memories of farewell songs

Pour down like gentle rain.

Wash off our sins and wrongs

And make us what we were again!

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Be a bit more than frivolous nostalgia

Stuck in this vicissitude of life: –

We don’t have our visions clear

Gasping for breath in this hopeless strife!

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Those days when we sang with no fear,

The iron resolves we wore as crowns-

Now like fallen kings in disarray so sheer,

We’re going down in leaps and bounds !

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In the sea of broken glass

We stand bloodied to the core.

Doomed in the abyss of hell,

We’re so very far from shore.

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And tears trickle down our eyes

As the songs hit our senses

The ones we sang while we bid goodbye

Hoping to make it big immense!

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In the race to the pinnacle

We so lost our way!

What we set out to achieve

Never saw the light of the day!

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And as we walk down the memory lane

We brush the dust from our suits so grey …

Still we raise a toast to our glory days again,

We live to fight another day!

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The Story of a Friday Night

Perhaps,

It wasn’t just another Friday night,

For something magical

Was waiting to happen!

Something special …

Maybe, who knew?

As their eyes met,

Again,

For the hundredth time that night!

A spark

Ready to fly!

A connection

Waiting to be made!

But alas! They looked away

Again!

And with drooping shoulders

And a throbbing heart

But with genuine sincerity

They took refuge in the

Helpless company of

The strangers of their lives: –

Strangers they met every day.

Strangers close to their physical self

But miles apart from their souls!

And the lights blazed,

The music grew louder,

The bottles grew emptier,

As loneliness bit their insides

Yet they were never short of laughs;

They needed a get away

Yet they sat along,

Nonchalantly,

With a contented face,

Gulping down the scotch

Their only other succour of the night

Than one another!

And before time

As they took their last sip,

There was this momentary pause

Just for that tiny bit!

Audaciously agonizing!

But surprisingly romantic!

Accompanied by

The fleeting dilemma

And the nervous heart-beats!

An ephemeral silence …

Engulfed them,

Alienating them

From all the ruckus

Of the outside world!

They looked mystified

As time stood still!

And then,

The final glance!

The final twinge!

The final moment

But of unrequited velleity!

As their broken-hearts

Decided otherwise: –

“Not today!”

“Not today”

As if taking a break

Would resurrect the part of them

That was already dead!

Maybe that solitary moment of warmth

Was all that they wished for!

Or maybe it was fate

As they made their way out.

A moment lost: –

A moment of rejuvenation!

A chance missed: –

A change to be whole again!

The music was still as loud as ever!

Most definitely,

It was just another Friday night,

Mundane, average, ordinary!

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Stuck

The blank page,

Looming large in front of me,

Stares at my hopeless face

Helplessly transfixed

In a never-ending baffle

Quivering in the air

In harmony with my

Arrhythmic heartbeats!

The fluttering sound

Aggravates my desperation

As I try again

Perhaps in vain

For a break-through

For the thousandth time

Silently

With an air of nonchalance

And a pen in my hand

While a storm rages inside

Destroying my pride,

My achievements,

My self-assurance!

Not even few shoddy lines,

Not even a word!

Am I done for life?

I ask myself,

As I close my eyes

And I scream and I scream

Again and again

Till my lungs explode

 I gasp for breath

And my body goes numb!

With cold eyes

I stare back at the blank page

And let the truth sink in –

Paralyzed and trapped

I wait … oh I so wait

For this feeling to pass

And these shackles to break

If at all …

If at all …

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Monsters

She stood contemplating
In the tranquil of
The baleful night.
Goodness got dissolved
In the dark depths of
Immorality and irrationality –
They were but decadent shadows!
Growing stronger in her head
With every tick of the clock
And there she was
Creating monsters
With a broken heart
And a troubled mind!
With conflicted ideals
And misunderstood emotions!
Ridiculed by people!
Ruptured by life!
Abandoned by her kin!
Alone in a hopeless strife!
A misplaced veneer
Of self-righteousness
Imbuing her beyond the realms of sanity
With vehement force
As they aggravated
Their presence inside her …
The devilish fiends!
Wilder, heavier, stronger
With blood on their hands
And vile on their faces;
Without further ado
They took control
And she maneuvered herself
To decide his destiny!

Him, it had to be him.
The smiling face angered her!
The sense of responsibility
Was too much to bear!
How could he be so proper?
How could he be so peaceful?
Every detail of his existence
Erupted flames of envy
And her soul burned
Her world of anarchy
Was threatened enough
To wake up the evil inside!
Time to let go …
Time to wreck havoc …
The monsters were summoned,
Breathing malice,
Itching to cut lose,
As she closed her eyes,
Shook her head,
Tightened her jaws
And wrapped her fingers
Tightly around that shiny object!

In that pitch black alley
The deadpan stillness
Was broken by the howling screams!
Blood trickled down
The garbage man’s neck
As he collapsed on the trash
Which he was about to take out.
The wind hissed.
The dogs barked.
The stink of the muck around
Surpassed the odour of sanctity.
As he breathed his last!

She was nowhere in sight!

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Death of an Alcoholic …

The right never seemed right

For I was never sober;

I swaggered on in my life in splurge,

I was in fifth gear!

The pomp and the splendor

Was actually pandemonium:-

But little did I understand,

Inebriated, I was self-damned

Boozing my way to the morning again

Red and black tarnishing my eyes,

The alcohol sucked my life’s breath

More than I could ever surmise!

And I thought I was celebrating life

Dismissing the hurt and the pain with glee

As I drank to my ignorance

Bathed in my sordid moral apathy!

The ethanolic smog grasped my soul!

Being giddy gave me solace!

Drenched in vile intoxication

I was the ignominy on the face of grace!

And that was the moment I collapsed

I was cold and the world was quiet.

A sated heart or a disgusted subconscious

Or both of them engrossed in a fight-

Immaterial, as the malevolent alcohol

Fulfilled its destiny, accomplished its role:-

I had already drank my way to false glory

No more was in store for the savaged soul!

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